i am 13 weeks pregnant and what that means is that my baby is almost completely formed, has all its "parts" and is the size of a peach. i am in my 2nd trimester.

right now i am at a stage where i am mostly excited about my baby shower and decorating the nursery (superficial, i know). i can honestly just browse on babiesrus.com for hours on end. i'm very anxious and excited to set up my registry. i have so many things picked out but i won't be able to set up my registry until i find out if its a boy or a girl.

i feel like i want a girl so desperately that its abnormal. most mothers just want a healthy baby- which i do want- but i also want it to be a girl. i think the strongest reason is because i adore the name i have picked out for a girl so much that i think i would be terribly disappointed if i couldn't use it (the name: skylar)

but i do think having a boy could be cool. my husband and i have already decided that he will be raised as a cool kid, not a cute little baby- skull and crossed bones shirts, camoflauge pants,little converse sneakers and a mohawk when he turns one. if i have a boy he will be dressed and treated similarly to gwen stefani's son kingston (if you follow that stuff).

all in all i feel impatient and intensely excited. i have all of these vivid dreams about being a mother. i keep thinking that as of september 2nd-ish my life will change forever. i am most looking forward to the amount of love i will have for my child. from what i've heard it is a wonder which is unparallel.

side note: i found an "all about me" book i filled out when i was six years old. one question asked "what do you want to be when you grow up?" and i wrote "a mom".

2007-02-23, 7:52 p.m.
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